Do you think Tommy likes dessert? What can I say, Alice and I are teaching him the most important things first (that at mealtime, the best thing usually comes last). Kids learn best by example, right? Maybe we should consider cutting back on the sweets! Anyways, Tommy and Jonas are precious boys. While it's hard not working at a job (I've been looking for full-time employment for 3 months, I'm only working 10 hours a week now), it is a privilege and joy beyond joy to have so much time with them. They actually make it hard to find a job because I just get so caught up in doing things with them and taking care of them. At the same time, it fuels my motivation to always be trying to improve my resume (isn't there only so many ways to spin your skills and experience? I've discovered them all). I want to get working full-time to provide better for them. I can't necessarily say that they deserve more, because what they are receiving in terms of time, love, and attention from both of us is astounding, but they deserve more in terms of a father who is a full-time provider and building financial security as opposed to someone who just manages to make it by each month. It will be hard to not have as much time with my boys every day as I do now. While going to work full-time will feel good in terms of providing, in 20 years I will look back with greater fondness for the time spent at home, not in the office. I guess there's a fine balance to be struck here, and while I'm certainly way out of balance right now in terms of my professional life, for the time being it's not such a bad balance because at least the side being favored is family and not profession!
